REBEL
by Robin Shwedo
©: Robin Shwedo, 1995
“Sit down and shut up,”
he orders with a snarl.
I have been to hell and back,
seen things -
no, experienced them -
that no living being,
human or otherwise,
should know exists.
There are abuses which,
bad enough when done by unknown,
are a thousand times worse
when done in the name of love.
There are those who bully for what they want,
who fight without conscience against us all,
unless someone is brave enough to
STAND UP
and break the cycle.
Sooner
(or later)
the beaten spirit does one of two things:
either it breaks, withers and dies,
or becomes a strong warrior,
becoming one who will fight back against the wrong.
I have lived too much to go back.
Now, looking for new relationships,
I see through the gauzy,
glittery
starry-eyed good times,
and frequently see to the center,
the rigid unyielding core of a person.
I have to to survive.
And so,
I slide from the stool by the restaurant counter,
stand tall, strong,
and,
looking him straight in his surprised eyes,
state in a loud,
clear,
strong voice,
“I will not sit down.
I will not shut up.”
I know I've posted this poem here several times. But many of us, at one time or another, find ourselves having to stand up for what is right.
This poem is part of my book Revolutionary Broads and Other Nightmares, which is looking for a publisher.
Wednesday, August 10, 2022
Monday, August 8, 2022
THE LOSS OF A FRIEND
THE LOSS OF A FRIEND
for Dick; book store owner, extraordinaire
by Robin Shwedo
©: Robin Shwedo, 1994, 2005
"He died," you say.
The words echo impotently,
as strange and empty
as though you had told me
it rained one day in 1852.
I hear you, I understand,
but somehow, it does not seem real.
Last week, when I stopped by
you mentioned he had been feeling ill for several days,
and would not be down, that rainy afternoon.
I heard him upstairs,
occasionally scrapping a chair on the floor,
or coming down hard when he stood up,
thumping and shuffling around above us.
The weekend before, while we talked in the back room,
he had come in from his office-cubicle,
and, leaving to get you a Coke from next door,
offered to bring me back one.
I showed him my hot-coffee-in-icky-styrofoam,
and thanked him, anyway.
And now, "He died Monday."
Just over 24 hours since I heard him.
Never made it to the procedure to make him better
(but maybe not well),
which, had Wednesday come,
he might have been too weak for.
The past two days,
I have looked at the ceramic porcupine
you gave me from the shop,
as though to reaffirm it (or he) is still here.
This morning, I looked out my kitchen window at
the overcast sky, promising rain,
and noticed birds huddle on the power line
like so many musical notes.
I counted to see how many birds there were
in this melody.
Oooonnneee,
(half hidden behind the neighbor's chimney)
two, three,
(I've never bought into the reincarnation stuff;
I share the Christian belief of
one birth,
one life,
one death,
one afterlife per person)
four, five, six,
(I almost feel, though,
that I can sense your spirit
with these notes
shivering against the impending rain)
seven,
eight,
nine, ten,
(you had a great record collection in
your store -
Big Band,
jazz,
everything)
eleven, twelve, thirteen, fourteen,
fifteen,
on the top line,
numbers sixteen and seventeen
one line lower,
and three more -
eighteen, nineteen and twenty -
on a third line at a right angle.
Suddenly,
as if on a quiet count from
a Big Band Beat,
they fly,
bringing your spirit soaring with them.
This is based on a real death. Dick owned a bookstore in Pinellas Park, Florida for the last few years of his life. It was a funky place with new and used books, several shelves in the middle of one room with tons of vinyl records, and a definite feel to it. He also had several comfortable chairs in the first room just inside the front door, along with a coffee urn and a pot of hot water for the selection of herbal teas and cocoa offered free of charge. His office was next to a staircase in a small room; the staircase led to his apartment above the bookstore.
Dick's death came as a shock; he'd been sick for maybe a week, and his significant other kept the store going until his death, then had to make the necessary calls to friends. At his memorial service, held at the bookstore, she chose small knickknacks to pass out to regulars to remember Dick by.
Most of this poem was written shortly after Dick's death, the last 5 lines in 2005. It took me that long to finish it.
This is part of a growing collection tentatively titled Working Class Poems.
for Dick; book store owner, extraordinaire
by Robin Shwedo
©: Robin Shwedo, 1994, 2005
"He died," you say.
The words echo impotently,
as strange and empty
as though you had told me
it rained one day in 1852.
I hear you, I understand,
but somehow, it does not seem real.
Last week, when I stopped by
you mentioned he had been feeling ill for several days,
and would not be down, that rainy afternoon.
I heard him upstairs,
occasionally scrapping a chair on the floor,
or coming down hard when he stood up,
thumping and shuffling around above us.
The weekend before, while we talked in the back room,
he had come in from his office-cubicle,
and, leaving to get you a Coke from next door,
offered to bring me back one.
I showed him my hot-coffee-in-icky-styrofoam,
and thanked him, anyway.
And now, "He died Monday."
Just over 24 hours since I heard him.
Never made it to the procedure to make him better
(but maybe not well),
which, had Wednesday come,
he might have been too weak for.
The past two days,
I have looked at the ceramic porcupine
you gave me from the shop,
as though to reaffirm it (or he) is still here.
This morning, I looked out my kitchen window at
the overcast sky, promising rain,
and noticed birds huddle on the power line
like so many musical notes.
I counted to see how many birds there were
in this melody.
Oooonnneee,
(half hidden behind the neighbor's chimney)
two, three,
(I've never bought into the reincarnation stuff;
I share the Christian belief of
one birth,
one life,
one death,
one afterlife per person)
four, five, six,
(I almost feel, though,
that I can sense your spirit
with these notes
shivering against the impending rain)
seven,
eight,
nine, ten,
(you had a great record collection in
your store -
Big Band,
jazz,
everything)
eleven, twelve, thirteen, fourteen,
fifteen,
on the top line,
numbers sixteen and seventeen
one line lower,
and three more -
eighteen, nineteen and twenty -
on a third line at a right angle.
Suddenly,
as if on a quiet count from
a Big Band Beat,
they fly,
bringing your spirit soaring with them.
This is based on a real death. Dick owned a bookstore in Pinellas Park, Florida for the last few years of his life. It was a funky place with new and used books, several shelves in the middle of one room with tons of vinyl records, and a definite feel to it. He also had several comfortable chairs in the first room just inside the front door, along with a coffee urn and a pot of hot water for the selection of herbal teas and cocoa offered free of charge. His office was next to a staircase in a small room; the staircase led to his apartment above the bookstore.
Dick's death came as a shock; he'd been sick for maybe a week, and his significant other kept the store going until his death, then had to make the necessary calls to friends. At his memorial service, held at the bookstore, she chose small knickknacks to pass out to regulars to remember Dick by.
Most of this poem was written shortly after Dick's death, the last 5 lines in 2005. It took me that long to finish it.
This is part of a growing collection tentatively titled Working Class Poems.
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